I've Been Told...

I've been told I'm Special
I've been told I'm here for a reason
I've been told I have made a difference
I've been told I can change the world!

Yes, my life has been difficult recently
but I can work thru it.
Everyone will have ups and downs
but Im done letting mine get to me!

I wanna know how special I am,
I wanna know what reason Im here for
I wanna know what knd of difference I will make
I wanna know if I really can change the world

I know I will always have obstacles trying to hold me back
But I have the will power to get over or around it
Im not going to listen to the ridicules and remarks around me.
I am going to see where I can end up in life!!!!!!

What do you do?

What do you do when your life finally seems to be going right, for the most part but one of the most important people from your past seems jealous and not happy for you? When you have finally realized that you need to forget the past and move on with your life. YOu know it was the right decision to make and everyones so proud of you, except for her and you can already tell your making a turn for the better. What do you do? This time last year I would have said " forget all this! im just going to forget it all! it aint worth it!! and not followed thru but now my feelings are different now. Now, I have decided that I know that this is what I have todo, it is going to be better for me now & for later in life. I cant let others in my life drag me down. I have to do what is best for me and if others dont approve then so be it. and if they dont understand why i must do it then i dont need them around anyway. I have to listen to God cause if Im not living for Him then what do I even have in the first place? What is my life worth? Its worth absolutely NOTHING if im not living the will of God. Im ready to stop living for what i want, put everything in God's hands, and live my life for him!!!

Brandi Michelle

January 23, 2009

Being An Athlete

Being an athlete means not being able to do every school activity you would like to. It means putting everything else behind, school, friends, everything. It means getting hurt but still trying, losing friends because they dont understand, living in you own world and not knowing what goes on outside of practice. Its working hard on one thing to perfect it for hours on end & the only people you talk to ourside of your team is family or might as well be. You have your circle of friends that love you and care but hardly ever get to talk to them. You may pass them in the hall at school but simply have time to say her and keep going for fear of being late its still having your one best friend that you still talk to and having left everyone else for the sport you love. Its forgetting how bad being single can hurt sometimes but a hard pravtice makes the pain disappear, at least temporarily. Its knowing exactly to eat before a practice, exhibition, competition, or game and having to plan everything around those. Its being categorized at school & feeling all alone all the time cause no one you know understands. Its having the physical and emotional strenght built up pver the years of feeling that way not to break down in front of everyone anymore. Its working everday for what you love and never giving up!

Written by: Brandi Michelle Lewis
August 8,2008

My Thoughts Tonight

As we enter and go thru 2009 I believe that God is going to work strongly in the lives of the youth of First Baptist Church Church Hill. We started off strong with Xtreme at the end of 2008. The conference really got the group fired up for Christ. At the most recent SMT meeting there was a lot of things running thru my mind. What really got my attention was some of the people that have always seemed to want our group to grow more toward Christ and to be a bigger and stronger group as a whole, seemed stuck in old ways! As long as i can remember the youth group at our church has gone to the YEC. This year we have now decided to go to Winter Jam instead. Many other youth and myself that went to winter Xtreme last December believe that the group as a whole and ourselves as individuals will get alot more out of this retreat than we would YEC. I honestly would have thought that she would want to do what the group would benefit more from. but thats not my problem.