The Mind of a Teenager.. Who has been through alot!

I wrote this on April 19th 2009 and read it to my youth group the following Wednesday night.

As I stand here before you tonight I see alot of things... Football players, basketball players, tennis, band members, colorguard girls, cheerleaders... So why are we all here together? Its not because we are all best friends, its for God. You know this because how often do you see a Varsity Cheerleader walking down the hall with a band member? Not often. How often do you see a football player hanging out with a girl from colorguard? Its about as rare. So why are we all here? Together? In the same room, doing the same thing? Is it because all of us want to? No. Is it all because our parents made us? for some maybe it is. For others it is not. We are mostly here for God and His glory!!!
As many of you here know, I really struggled last year. I went my own way and did not do what God wanted me to do. I was to focused on what i wanted and not what God wanted. I chased after a guy, who was not involved regularly in church, though he claimed to be a Christian. Who would cuss and scream and fight just for the heck of it. He didnt care about anyone but himself. I thought he loved me, I thought he cared, but I was wrong. I see now that i should have followed what my heart told me to do not my head. While i was going through all this i struggled with my faith. I got up on Sunday mornings and came to Church cause mom and dad said i must, I came on Wednesday nights to see my friends and talk about the latest thing that happened at school.
I was so commited to my tumbling that I didnt care what it took i was going to do what i had to do to be the best i could. I didnt miss a practice unless i absolutely had to, I went to every competition i could and i didn't care if I missed church. I actually looked forward to it. Now i look back and see all that i went through and im not going to say i regret it because i see that God was working in my life all along. He let me go through all that to make me who i am supposed to be one day. Even tho i went through all the pain and all the questioning of whether God really existed and if He really loved me, I wouldnt change it for anything. Between Xtreme, Winter Jam, listening to what John has to say on Wednesday nights and Brother Gary on Sunday mornings, and my own personal time with God, I have come to realize EVERYTHING and i mean everything, that happens to each and everyone one of us for a reason!!! We all are here tonight for a reson! Whether we get along or not we have been placed in each others lives for a reason by God.
With the help of many friends I have made this year I have realized that just because i was so far away from God last year doesnt mean it has to be like that forever. In fact right now my walk with the Lord is stronger than it has been in a long, long time. I have realized that a Christian will face things in their life that make them realize that God is the one and only and if you don't follow Him life is almost unbearable at times. You realize during your walk with Jesus that Satan really is a devil! He despises the fact that you love the Lord and he will try every way in the world to hold you back. He will make you believe that God isnt real. He will give you obstacles to overcome that when youre first confronted with them you believe they are impossible, but with God's help everything is possible! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD!!!!!!!!!! He can pull you out of the deepest darkest pit and se you back on your feet. God is always waiting with open arms to accept you and love you and forgive you of all your sins. And trust me, its not an easy road. You may lose friends you will have hard times. but this is part of living a Christian life. You will get judged because of your faith. but you will also have times to witness to non-believers and the joy you will get when you help lead someone to Christ makes everything worth while. I have seen this in my own life and i believe that Jesus died on the cross thinking of each and everyone of us. He now sits at the right hand of our Father and knows each and everyone of us inside and out. He knows what is going to happen 5 seconds from now. 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 years, or 5 centuries! he knows it all! He knows the exact secont we will take our last breath and join him in Heaven. He knows the man or woman we will marry, and if and when we will have children.
I have said all this to asy all this right here.
Jesus loves you and cares about you. He wants you to be his and to walk with him everyday. It does not matter what you have done in the past. He will accept you the way you are. So if you believe in Hima and trust Him with all your life remember this: In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:6)
If you think that you are to far away to accept God as your Lord and Savior. YOUR WRONG!!! I thought that i was to far away from God last year and at the beginning of this year to ever be able to call myself a Christian agian. Then things began to change. I met a few people that changed my life, some other things began taking place and i realized I could still be a child of God. I want you all to realize that to. It does not matter what you have done it only matters what you are going to do. Like i said before, it wont always be easy. I recently have been through some things that this time last year i would have handled completely differently. I probably would have said some choice words, slapped a few people or punched something and stayed mad until something else happened that i could be mad at. Now i prayed to God to give me the strength and the wisdom to do what was right and it has worked itself out for the most part. No one should ever thing that God wont take them back. Never give up on God cause he will never give up on you!!!!!!
I know you are probably thinking what was the point of this.. Ill tell you what the point of this was. I want you to know that God loves each and everyone of you. Unconditionally!!! & i have stood in front of you to tell you all this because i felt that it is what God wanted me to do!!!